.Sunday, April 24, 2011.

I'm yours.

This entire semester has been tiring. The worst of all - it hasn't ended. I really worried about all my final examination papers. I really screwed them up big time. I have no idea what I was writing, oh no, maybe I should say I know for sure that I wrote crap. I am really praying hard that I don't fail any of them. Now, there's still AT to worry about. I have no idea what is going on in class every week and it seems like I am living in my own retarded world. RAH. I need help and enlightenment. Maybe I should arrange for coffee with Watts and Zimmerman to find out what is going in their minds.

The past one week has been a pretty relaxing week and I took one week off and spent more time with Silly. Sleeping in his arms, watching movie, buying stuff, and eating nice stuff could all be summarized into a single word, AWESOME. Being together for about one year plus, there are so many things that I have yet to learn. Having chats with Silly always open up my mind to new insights of relationship. Though I do not agree with some of the stuff he said but I am beginning to understand certain ideas that I used to disagree with. I used to think that love is supposed to like a fairytale but not anymore. Do not get me wrong, I don't mean that in a negative way. It is just that I had a new revelation of what it is all about.

Recently, I have came across some stuff and I realized that some people do behave very childishly. Maybe I am one of them too. I know I am in no position to make any judgments but I do feel that some people should stop blaming others for certain stuff. I guess it always take two hands to clap. I have come to realize that sometimes it is not that people change which results in them drifting apart from one another. But rather, we should ask ourselves how we have treated others that have led them to be disappointed in you and thus walked away from your life.

Silly is starting work at his new workplace tomorrow. I do feel happy that he has found a job that he prefers over his previous one but I can't deny that I do worry about us when he starts work proper. Silly said that we just have to learn to accept changes. I do hope I can learn to accept the change in our lifestyle where we would not get to meet as much as before. Silly will probably more tired all the time and I still have school work to handle. But then again, he is right, it will be like that when I enter the working world in future too. Hm. I just got to grow up and learn.

Labels: New Beginning

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