.Friday, September 15, 2006.
Cold. Freezing weather.
I like cooling weather but not cold weather. No, this is not contradicting. This morning, the sky was overcast. i didn't like it. It is too dark. Too scary. We were kind of late for PE today. Mis Lim and the other PE teachers got quite pisst with all the PE classes and she sent us off running 6 rounds. 2.4 km. I ran like a noob. However, this is all expected given that i have not been exercising. I felt quite shiok after that. After running, the guys went off to play soccer. The girls, 7 of us, were playing captain's ball followed by poison ball. Lol. Oh oh, haha, xianling's classmate was very comical. Mr wee asked him where was the rest of the class. Then he said he saw some girls changing. Mr wee went "What?!! You saw some girls changing?!" lol. Now you know who is the peeping tom in vj. lol. Kidding. poison ball. Lol. We were running like chickens in the rectangular boundary trying to dodge the ball here and there. After PE was break. I bought lemon tea. It reminded me the times in primary school. I would always buy the polka bottle lemon tea. I was kind of tired after PE. I was in the canteen with edward and jiawei. I was reading through maths. Then the day passed till lessons ended. I was studying in the canteen with xianling. it was really cold there. I hate it when it is cold. It is terrifying. It makes me feel down. It makes me feel empty.
We did work till about 4 plus and i really couldnt take it anymore and went home. We walked under the drizzle. It was cold.
This week, I was kind of quiet. I didnt feel like talking much. My mind was blank for most of the time. Why? I didnt know. I guess i am just too tired by this hectic life. I try very hard to keep focus. I tried. I am not as crappy as before. I used to find joy in smiling. Today, i feel that it is quite a tiring task to smile. I think i just need some rest.
Ok, i shall talk about the past week. Tuesday was PW day. Long day. I had physics prac that day too. We had to do some experiment invovling the test tube floating on water in a big big beaker. My test tube was bobbing up and down non stop and i was so irritated as it was quite difficult to get an accurate reading. My face was so close the beaker till i think i was like kissing the beaker man. I was feeling super hot in the poor ventilated lab. I think i almost fainted in that puny corner. Maybe i would die there one day while doing experiment. There was nothing much on wed. Then came thurs. I totally screwed up my Spa. Test tube cracked. Mr Lin was giving me so much attention. I didnt like it. It made me feel uncomfortable as usual. But then again, it is over. During GP, Joel, Marisa and Shangmao were asleep. lol. Three heads bobbing up and down and it was quite funny.
Oh, i am now addicted to the songs by Jay Chou recommended by eugene. lol. They are quite touching and meaningful songs. I like them. I think his phone battery is going to die on him later looking at the rate i am using it to listen to songs. lol. I was watching the last episode of "My lovely samsoon" yesterday night. It was quite a meaningful ending. I like the part when samsoon dreamt of her father who had already passed away. Her dad urged her to not be paranoid about stuff but just give treasure whatever you have at present and enjoy every moment of it. I was just thinking. In the show, samsoon is just a 30 year old, plumb looking lady that is not attached. Hyun Bin is a good looking, rich and educated guy. however, he still fell in love with samsoon. He loved her. I think this is really true love. the plot maybe funny and silly to some people but i think this story reflects true love. Love in a way that appearances and differences in social status doesnt matter. It is just so wonderful and beautiful.
I need to work much harder than before. Focus. Concentrate. Everything will be over in a month's time. Hang in there cihui. It is worth it. Keep going!
I think sometimes we just lack the courage to do some stuff. We lack the courage to ask a simple question, to make a decision and carry it out. Sometimes, all it takes is for us to ask that question. Dont let what you think the outcome might be affect you in asking a qn. It is such a wasted opportunity.
" Love like you have never been hurt before.
Sing like as if there is no one else around listening to you.
Dance like as if there is no one else around watching you.
Live through everday as if it would be the last day of your life.
Learn to love and be yourself.
For that is you.
The only you that God created"
