.Tuesday, August 01, 2006.
Tuesday. Long day. SPA day. PW day. Sad day.
LOL.
I had Physics SPA today. Thank God everything is over. At least at the moment. I shant think about how did i fare but thin about how i should complete the high pile of tutorial stacked just right beside me. Life is getting really boring these days. It is like a vicious cycle everyday. Wake up unwillingly every morning. Drag a half dead body to school. Yawn in your friends face when you see them. Then get mentally tortured by stress and work in school. Drag the three quarter dead body to the bus stop after school. Try to hop onto the bus. Then get home. And everything starts all over again.
HAHA. How fun man.
hmm, but today i feel abit different on my way home. I used to be so blinded by many things and neglected the beautiful scenery out there when i take bus home. I use to sleep or think or worry. Today, i looked out. My mind was clear of all thoughts. The sky looks beautiful. The trees look beautiful. Perhaps it was because we once neglected such stuff in our life and now when we see it, we will then find it beautiful.
Silence. I hate silence sometimes. it feels weird. It is so not me. But at the same time i dont like it to be too noisy. I kept quiet at some instance recently. There are some things which were not needed to be spelt out. It should just be kept at the deep bottom of my heart. i have been wondering which is the true me. I put on many masks till the extend that i am confused by who i am. I have decided. I shall just BE MYSELF. Be the way i feel most comfortable. It is the only way to be happy:) But sometimes i am really confused by you. I dont know which is the true you. Just when i thought you were like that, you were not like that. it is so confusing. Read between lines. That confused me too.
Okay, enough of all these. i shall start clearing the mountain of work. Smile:)
A NEW me:
Try my best to work hard.
Try my best to study
Be MYSELF
Life's Good. Do your best and God will do the rest! Dont worry, Cihui. :)
