.Wednesday, August 23, 2006.

-All i want is to smile from the bottom of my heart-

Help.

These few days, tan chun and i felt that things dont seem to be turning out right for many people. Many people seem to be bothered by many stuff. Many people are annoyed and irritated. I am included in this "many people". PW, personal problems and school work. they are just irritating. All these are just screwing up my life. My pathetic life. I am just a girl who have been through only sixteen years of life. Cant i live in a simple world? A world that only has problems that a sixteen year old can handle? i know i sound childish but that is what i really want. I want the feeling of annoyance to go away. it is so tiring to be annoyed. Hopefully everyone would be fine soon. Physics, i shall do it tmr morning when the rest are having geo lecture. Damn it.

I shall blog about happier stuff. I had a long day on monday. I stayed in the library to study with mahesha after school. haha. mahesha was talking so loudly on the phone that the other guys from another table was like "shii". haha. Then shiva was there. Or however you spell his name. Haha. he is another funny guy and now i am known as ah hui to him. haha. Then i went to the canteen to meet Xian ling after that and i had mash potato. err, i still think that the one from 7-11 is nicer even though it is the same machine. Then i had cca till 7 plus. Tuesday was the problematic day. Everyone seems to be having their own problems. it was another long day for me. During the afternoon pw session, jerrold was moving his head in the bluetooth manner and singing that lame song. hahaha. hamdan just gave him this face:=.='''. So funny. i cant stop laughing after that. Then i stayed in the canteen to study for a short while with eugene then i went home. Then came today. had physics lec in the morning followed by maths. Maths, damn it. She was going like a bullet train. Then we had break and then chem lec assessment. Oh shant talk about that. Then came maths tutorial. haha. Mahesha and karan was lame. Then i was trying to talk to edward and andrea and ethel was trying so hard to block my view. ahaha. During geo lecture tan chun kept on doing funny stuff. All marisa and me gave her was this look:=.=. Geo lecture ended really soon. Then i stayed in sch to study with mahesha, andrea and sam. nothing could get into my slow functioning brain. Oh man, and i only knew it today that yao peng is the captain of the track team. haha. how slow can i get. Then i went home. I got onto a double deck 55. Yay. Seriously, i think 55 has a cocked up frequency system and it is pissing me off.

I intended to sleep on the way home but couldnt fall asleep. Must be the mocha. Ok, i shant complain to nescafe at the moment. I was looking out of the window and some thoughts came to my mind.

"special'. what is the significance of this word to you. it reminds me of special people. People who are dear and special to me. People who make a great difference in my life. i see a special someone in each of them. A unique side. it kept me thinking. Do i make a difference in anyone's life? I like the special feeling when i am with special people. You feel that everything is special. Just between you and your friend. It feels good to have such a feeling. You would do and say special stuff to to the special-someone to you. Special moments. Special moments would not standstill. The only way to retain special moments is to keep it in your memory. it would brighten up your day when you think of such happy times.

[When you need to tell someone something, dont wait. Say it out loud. If not, you might just lose some things forever. Dont wait till that day and regret!]

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