.Thursday, June 08, 2006.
Yes, I am back to blog again. *sigh.i have been quite busy for this past week. Another week of holidays have passed again. Time really flies man. On Tuesday I went out in the very late afternoon to go to town to get my bag. Ahaha. I have got a striking red pony bag. Ahaha.ok so cihui is suppose to scrimp and save and be like a slave. Lol. Kidding. So yes, slaves should be contented with a new bag. Cihui should be glad that at least she got a pony bag and not some donkey bag. I dragged my sis here and there and she was complaining. But after all, she still got her bag too. So yes, stop complaining man. Walked around in Heeren and went into the “vault”. Gosh, limited edition stuff inside. Some stuff are seriously great. But yet again, a slave like me is supposed to scrimp and save and not be materialistic. Yet again I only had the share of staring at stuff. lol. On the way, we popped into HMV and listened to Junyang’s “Sha Sha de Shui”. The starting of the song was a bit boring but after that I realize the song is very nice. A song that is suitable for him to sing. In town there were all the GSS signs. I was so tempted to buy many stuff. However, a slave like me should be penniless. Hm… so I just stared. Ahaha. We had dinner out and then went home after that. My legs were killing me. I guess my sister almost became lame too.lol
On Wednesday I went back to school for CCA. I headed for PL after that to do some stuff. Lol. The girls had drill test. Those were the days man. Returning to PL gave me the feeling of returning to home. There are these two lines in the school song “ So when we leave its shelt’ring walls, we go with fearlessness”. I still remembered that when I was in sec four, these words became more and more meaningful to me as the day of graduation came nearer. Yes, PL was our shelt’ring walls. A place where we felt protected. The world outside is complex. Now when we are out in the complex world, I try very hard to go with fearlessness. I have to learn grow, to mature and to protect myself. I must learn to step out of my comfort zone and learn to become a stronger person.
This morning I woke up and did geo. In the afternoon I went to NDC for dental appointment. While waiting to be called, there was this kind of beng guy sitting behind me with his wife and son. If I am not wrong, his son had some problem with his tooth. A very young boy. Then that beng was kind of complaining in dialect that the doctor was wasting his time making him wait. He was like any problems with my son’s tooth just pluck it out and let me leave. That was not that bad. Then there were some other kids running about there too. I thought they were so cute. Then he started complaining again. “ Those kids are super noisy man. I fell like giving them a tight slap but I cant because they are not my children. “ then his beng friend wanted to smoke and said that he will need to get out to smoke as it was a air-conditioned bulding. That beng started ranting again. “This is doctor’s territory leh. Don’t keep on smoking. “ I was like whatever. No link. In the end I was called in. So the nurse was all friendly and all. There weren’t like that two years ago. They use to pull a long face. It must be due to some complains for the change.
I sat there for only about five minutes. The doctor just poke here and there and I was done. Guess how much I have to pay for that? 32 dollars. Not ringgit. I travel all the way to outram park, wait for 20 minutes to be called. Sat on the thing for five minutes and paid 32 dollars. Even though it was my parents money but my heart still bled. So after which I went home. Went to get oreo coffee for my sis and myself before reaching home. So here I am blogging after revising geo. I cant remember a single thing. How? I am stress. How? I am lost. How? I am broke. How? As usual I have no answers to these questions.
Anyway, I was watching the lu (green) guang sen lin just now on channel U. my gosh. I think I am hooked onto it. Yes, a love story. Another one with some childhood promise thing. The violinist looks good man. I want the female lead to be with him. Jin Yuan Fang is his name in the show. But the other hairy guy, William, is the male lead. Irritating. He is such a goon. William is irritating. He claims to protect the female lead but cannot use his heart to feel that the girl right in front of him is the person he is looking for. Irritating. Yes, so which means the girl is crying real hard because of him. Irritating people who always break other people’s heart. What a goon. Hmm… feel much better now. Ahahahaha. Hopefully he will stop dreaming in his lala land and go after the girl man. See, a slave like me is stupid isn’t it. I am watching shows that pisses me off but yet I enjoy and continue watching it.lol. That’s just cihui, a silly girl who always contradicts herself. But I like the lyrics of the song . It is quite meaningful. There is this line that says, (direct translation), “It seems to be a long wait, but believe me, I have never given up and will never give up’. I think it is suppose to mean “to hold on” and all. So
sweet.
Yes, that was a drama. A fantasy story. Promises. Childhood promises. Does such stuff really happen in reality? People do make promises. However, are they really fulfilled? Hopefully it will be fulfilled in the show. If not it would be really sad. So yes, self reflection time again. What have I done in the past week? I only remembered myself as a spendthrift. So time to scrimp and save. Cihui shouldn’t be materialistic and will cannot afford to be materialistic. So cihui have to think of people suffering in Africa. Shall I skip meals for the next few days? Nah, I cant do it. Ahaha. Should have join famine camp then. Nah, I know I cant make it anyway. Oh ya, that reminds me of ethel. She is already so skinny. And she is going for famine camp. Hmmm… will it be a pack of bones that I see when I next see her? A skeleton with a red crumpler. Lol. Just kidding.no offence. So world cup is one day away. YAY! Beckham is going to be back on the screen again!!!!. It is going to be the last time he is taking part in World Cup. Sniff sniff. So sad. I hope he will seriously play extremely well this time! It had better not be like last time when I woke up in THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT and watch his team LOSING. Lol. I felt so sad at that time. Went to bed straight after the match. I woke up the next day at a super early time and continue to feel sad. Anyway, that was the past. So first match for 2006. germany up against Costa Rica. Germany, All the way! Lol. Hm.. that’s all for today! Smile:)
Goal: To be an independent and strong girl. Never give up, never say die and never surrender!
Heard this somewhere: Hold on tight to my hand and I will never let go.
Sweet man.
